Chapter 75
“Alexander can’t stand the feeling of a woman’s touch on his skin. When he feels a woman’s hands on his body during sex, it makes him lose it and want to destroy everything. He can’t control himself, and he’s afraid of breaking her in two because of his lack of control. He’s unable to manage his impulses, and that makes him dangerous for his partner. He avoids local women so he’s sure never to see them again, and he makes sure they’re always willing.”
I’m shocked and speechless. I never would have guessed he had that kind of problem during sex.
“And he’s always been like that?”
How does someone become like this? Has he ever tried to get help?
“It’s been that way since he was a kid. For him, violence is in his blood, but I couldn’t find out more.”
I don’t know how to react to all these revelations. He doesn’t accept a woman’s touch during sex. He won’t sleep with someone he might see again, because his sex is so brutal.
Yet ever since we met, he’s tried repeatedly to sleep with me.
Why act so seductive if he knows how dark his side is?
I should be terrified, but it’s the opposite–I’m wondering what that kind of relationship would even be…
How do you sleep with a man without touching him?
I guess he does all the work, right?
When he calls himself “dangerous” during sex… how dangerous is that, exactly?
Inara, now is not the time to let your unstable fantasies wander.
Erika looks at me, surely expecting some kind of reaction.
I look at her, doubtful.
“Alexander’s a big flirt. He has a pervy side, he doesn’t even try to hide. What you’re telling me is… surprising.”
“He’s naturally seductive, but he knows what risk his partner is taking.”
“Limping for a week isn’t the end of the world either!”
I cough to hide my embarrassment, realizing what I just said, while she laughs.
“Why are you telling me all this? It’s pretty personal.”
She gives me a big smile.
“I know you’re dying to sleep with Alexander. I’m warning you so you won’t be shocked when you two cross that line. I don’t want you running away once you realize Alexander is really… intense. I don’t want him to get hurt.”
I raise an eyebrow, I start to blush, imagining myself in Alexander’s arms.
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Alexander is back. I’m sitting on the couch but I stand up to face him.
“I found a way to save your ass from your enemies and Khalid’s revenge.”
I cross my arms across my chest.
“I’m listening.”
“I want you to work for me, Inara.”
I open my eyes wide. I feel like I’m hallucinating. I wait for him to burst out laughing, but he doesn’t.
“Is this a joke?”
“Do I look like I’m joking?”
Of course not,
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“How can you even consider making me work for you? In your eyes, a woman has no business in the world of crime. Do you want me to remind you of everything you’ve told me since we met, or is that unnecessary?”
“A woman has no place in the world of crime, that’s true. But you… You’re different.”
Why am I feeling tingling between my legs when he talks to me like that?
Erika should never have told me anything – now it’s stuck in my head and might drive me crazy.
“And why’s that?”
“You know how to fight, handle weapons, and you’ve got a solid mindset. You also have assets my men don’t – ones that would be very useful to my gang.”
i look at him, doubtful.
“Meaning?”
“You’ve got model curves and an ass that could make any man fall at your feet.”
Not a hint of mockery in his voice; I’ve rarely seen him so serious.
“Your price will be mine. You’d also get protection from the gang.”
“This isn’t about protection – or money.”
He raises his eyebrows.
“Then what?”
“My father already hates us both. If he finds out I’m working for you, he won’t rest until we’re both in the grave.”
He lets out a smirk that reveals his dimples and sends a chill down my spine. I hate what he’s making me feel right now. He quickly places his finger on the scar under his eye.
“Khalid doesn’t scare me. He’ll never stop me from getting what I want. And right now, what I want is you.”
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I feel my heart explode as he keeps eyeing me. I hold back from looking away. I try to calm my heart’s pounding and the growing sensation in my core.
My eyes drift to his body – more precisely to his crotch, hidden by the suit pants he’s wearing.
Inara, snap out of it! This is a serious conversation.
“I can’t accept. It’d be suicidal – for me, for you, and your gang.
He keeps smiling. His attitude makes no sense, especially since he didn’t get the answer he wanted.
“It’s your choice. At least do me a favor. Tomorrow I have an evening with other gang leaders. I want you to come with me.”
I look at him, doubtful.
“There’s no way I’m going to be surrounded by those people again after what happened on stage with Hakim. And I can’t be in the
same room as Khalid. It would cause a scandal.”
He loses his smile. His jaw tightens and he frowns.
“You’re starting to piss me off. Are you still under your father’s control or what? You’re going to stop yourself from going somewhere because he’s there, is that it? Since when do you care what people think? They saw your underwear, so what?”
He doesn’t yell, but his coldness is unmatched. It’s been a while since he let that version of Alexander show in front of me. I had almost forgotten he existed.
Everything he’s saying is true, but it’s hard for me to face all of this so quickly. My whole life turned upside down in just one evening.
I’m not afraid of people’s looks, or their comments, or their mockery.
I’m afraid of becoming unpredictable and losing control when I hear them.
Arrogance is a mask I wear to avoid being vulnerable and letting all the hatred I feel pour out.
Alexander doesn’t need to know all that; it’s personal.
“Fine, I’ll go with you.”
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